Unbroken Pieces

What I have learned so far on this journey is that, when I was younger, all the decisions that were made in my life were not always my choice. But, as I grew older, I learned that the choice is mine; I decide. So…I made the decision to make the necessary changes in my life and, honestly speaking, it has been a rollercoaster. I can never say I was superwoman throughout this process, especially in the beginning when I had to go back into my past. As much as change made me feel uncomfortable when I first started, the more I worked on changing, the better I felt.

We all know that no one is born with negative characteristics. When you really look at it, life experiences have a way of altering our natural born characteristics. So for me, change is always seen as a great thing.

If anyone says that change is easy, they are lying! To anyone considering making a change in their life, let me be the first to say that change is one of the toughest and most challenging things ever in your life. Sometimes you feel like you have two different personalities when, in reality, you do not: you are simply trying to change.

With that said, when I was beginning to work on myself, I felt like no one understood me: I cried more than ever before, I noticed that my circle of friends did not grow, it diminished instead, and I felt all alone. I felt, at times, like I was going crazy. I even thought to compromise all of the changes I was making and revert back to some of my old broken ways.
When you are working on change, you are bound to make mistakes along the way. But the difference between not being aware of your brokenness and being aware of it, is that you learn faster from your mistakes and most likely go on to make wiser and better decisions. Being able to change is a skill that requires consistency. Which is why most people don’t stay committed to the changes they make in their lives – they have difficulty with being consistent (me being #1). Or, they get easily frustrated because they don’t see results fast enough, but the goal is to always get back on track.

On this journey there have been numerous lessons learned: mainly, that all the challenges and emotions I went through are normal; that there is no point in revisiting the places in your life that did not support your happiness, and that’s just to name a couple.

Putting the broken pieces together is the greatest challenge; it is sometimes very hard to bear. But I sure do have plenty to share with you all about everything I have learned so far, in the hopes that other women will find the courage to venture out on their own journey. Welcome to my journey.

Keemah.G